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[26 Nov 2007|08:13am] |
I only write here because its the only place that is blog related that I can enjoy at work... its kind of dumb... but its life.
Following my trend of habbits I suppose I should continue on with my depressing stories... maybe?
Played D&D again last night... its always fun... Accelerated Pretending to the max... I dont care.. I have a blast with it, its hilarious and all in good company. Maybe if more of the people i played with would pay attention and remember their spells it might move a trite bit faster... or if they knew what dice to roll and how to roll it might apply better. They are getting better... but very slowly.
I hung out with her again last night... I always have a blast with her... even if its absolutely nothing fun. She brought up some things that made me think a little differently about her... I brought up some things that are recent with my life and I think I stunned her. I have always had a thing for her... always.... for aslong as i could remember actually. There are only a few instances that I can say trully touched my heart... and shes been a part of a majority of those.
Sometimes you just want people to grow up and see the world... or soemtimes you jsut want them to see whats right in front of them.... Im right in front of her... but it feels like she keeps trying to look over my shoulder...
Its not all its cracked up to be.
I've been there for years... i still plan to be there.... unless a force stronger than me decides otherwise.
Open yoru eyes and look at whats right infront of you... Sometimes opportunites last mere seconds and arent there for a lifetime. The grass is never greener on the otherside. Only another tithe of gray to bleed out.
I am your smile in the light of day and your warmth in the middle of the night.
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[15 Nov 2007|08:58am] |
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So im at work... I go to work alot... I kind of like my job because I have the freedoms I have at my own home and I get to work with some pretty kool people... The only downfall is they dont like me sleeping at the job.... maybe on break... but not while i am supposed to be working. New in my life... lets see... I picked up a comic book reading habit... umm... I am getting better at gutiar hero... i beat hard... and i lost all of my save information so i have to start it back over.... it isnt as bad as you might think... .Just more practice i suppose... umm... My wii is awesome when i have batteries for my wiimotes.... I bought Resident Evil: Umbrella chronicles and I am feinding for it... i haven't quite been able to play it yet... it would be really nice if i could do that today... just go home and read my comics and play my games... maybe I could get some company to... that would be awesome stuff. I am trying to do things that conserve money... Im really fucking scared about my loans... its terrifying... I suppose it wont be so bad after i make my first few payments... but man... its jsut completely terrifying right now... Im completely convinced that I will be stuck living at home for the rest of my life... Ill have amazing credit due to my loans... but my personal lie will completely squander and thats dumb..... really dumb... I suppose that is all for now...Nobody will read this... and Ill get no comments... thats what happens when you dont post for years
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[25 Dec 2006|08:06pm] |
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2006 has really sucked
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[14 Sep 2006|01:39am] |
Evangelion Updates
Posted Sep 13th 2006 7:02PM by Mark Beall
Following close on the heels of Monday's news about four new Neon Genesis Evangelion anime movies comes a more concrete and substantial report on the project, thanks to the ever-present Variety. The four new films will be released in a semi-staggered order, with the first film hitting Japanese theaters in July of next year, the second in January, and the third and fourth (as a double-bonus release) sometime in the summer of '08.
We're told the plan is for the first two movies to do some general re-telling and summarizing of the original 26 episodes, using an assortment of images from the series (with all-new backgrounds and soundtracks), while the final two (with their simultaneous release) will be all new material. The new material is apparently meant as something of a mea culpa and a make-up gift to fans who were dissatisfied with the (admittedly rather weak) "ending" the movies created back in 1997. Not surprisingly, all four plan to use far more 3D animation than their mid-nineties predecessors, but with much of the same creative team attached. So, yeah -- fans shouldn't worry too much about the franchise moving too far away from the original "feel."
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| Im infatuated with... |
[06 Sep 2006|01:06am] |
...life, but the road im on is covered with small pebbles that abstruct me enjoyment.
Sometimes i cant enjoy it.... sometimes enjoyment isnt an option
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[09 Aug 2006|09:03am] |
So.. last monday i was involved in a car wreck.. Legally its my fault.. but technically... WHO THE FUCK SLAMS ON THE BREAKS ON THE INTERSTATE MID TRAFFIC... So its yeha im gettin screwed... so Yesterday while i was working for my mom.. and adjustor came out and totalled up the damages on my car.. He told me that my car is going to be declared a Total Loss. To top the matters off they want to write em a settlement check dependant on how much they think my vehicle is worth .. and they are going to keep my car.. so heres this bullshit...
I pay 140 bucks a month for full coverage insurance.. so now they can write me a 500 dollar check and confiscate my vehicle while still leaving me to pay 2300 to the bank for my loan... see my fucking predicament.. fuck the government
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[24 Jul 2006|02:12am] |
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i got my coheed tickets for the 4th.. is anyone else going?
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[15 Jul 2006|01:00am] |
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No more driving for me.. im stuck.. someone just kill me already..
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| I include you all |
[08 Jul 2006|09:53am] |
The 8th... man the year is going by quick.. is it not? 06 is totally sucking for me. Lotsa work, no play, and a crap ton of let downs. Lets hope 07 is better. Everyone makes adult life sound so hard... it really isnt.. however it is sad, monotonous and boring after a while.. but I guess i could see how one would say its hard. Sure Im broke.. Im single.. I have a cat named Phelix. he rocks. But ive got good friends... All of them... Ide like to thank all of you guys for putting up with my shit for this long. Tim.. Nerd to the core.. with a side order of pms. But overall your a great guy. What you lack in social skills, You make up for in pop culture haha. Raf.. my mexican.. Youll be gone soon an i wont see you so much after that. Im still planning on taking a road trip to mexico. Me you and tim... two white guys and a mexican forever. Billiam... Weve been through some great times man.. I dont hear from you much.. at all really hehe.. But your still my brother. We could go for years without talking but when we finally do talk again.. its like we just saw each other the previous day.. like it aint no thang heh. Greg. We dont hang out enough. We see each other at band practice, but thats it.. thats really not enough.. Another good guy.. though a major dick.. overall a good guy. Good for advice and help in tight binds. Adem... my man adem. Hes got issues.. but weve all got issues.. lately hes been struggling with those.. But the man has always been there to help me.. if and when i need it.. and im there for him if he needs it. But he normally doesnt.
Will.. So passive, sometime it hurts.. One of the funnest and funniest people you will meet.. Great guy, Great personality... hes just will.. wish there were more wills in the world. Konrad.. Dumb fucker but a genius at the same time. Funny, and jsut plain fun to be around. Hes much like will. Grant.. he wont read it. But i just met the guy and i can already tell that hes a great kid.. still a minor.. but he helps pass the time haha. I dont ever see joey any more. Fat Joe... My Nigga fat joe.. Hes just one of those people tha I always want to be around, but i never see enough of. Mike.. My main man Mike.. and Penny too... Good people... they just had to move way the fuck out in BFE **shakes fist**. I miss you kids. Dan.. he wont read this.. hes a dick anyway... gotta love him though. Tony.. Tony might read this. Thanks for singing to me last night tony.. it made my night... Great guy.. i miss him too. Brittney.. My ex neighbor.. my prom date.. Where the fuck are you.. i know you still read this crap haha. Fucking call me!!
If i failed to point you out in this post.. its because you dont see me..
Dave
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| Yesterday... |
[25 Jun 2006|01:29pm] |
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...was a damn long and awesome day... i woke up at 6 for school left at 7, got out of school by noonish. Drove home and chilled out with the rents untill greg showed up and we started setting up. We played a beginning set which was ok... few listeners.. but it was fun.. and it was good to stretch out the old singin wings ya know... then we ate and swam... and adem showed up and we did our francis bit, and then again with our second set... which was so much more fun and better than the first... then we kind of chilled out afterwords and screwed around butchering covers... afterwards greg packed up everythign on his own.. i feel like a douche for bailing on him for that but he managed hehe... ended up going to waffle house late late last night and then i didnt even get home untill like 2... so it was 20 hours of madness but overall it was worth... ide like to thank the guys for making the band things work.. it was fun and i hope we can do it again soon.
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| well... |
[21 Jun 2006|11:01pm] |
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...Today was the first time i had seen her since ebfore Valentine's day... i was driving to school when i got cut off and i had to swerve into a lane as to avoid certain death... and guess who i cut off?... Im pretty sure she didnt realize that it was me though
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[04 Jun 2006|12:54am] |
Another bad week or so... got a speeding ticket.. and a seatbelt ticket... Then my radiator went out, so i bought a new radiator and a thermostat so i wouldnt have to worry about my car over heating, right?
Got my radiator replaced but the thermostat was pushed off to the side..
Glove box breaks a few days ago
Car was broken into tonight and the Thermostat was stolen.. and my stereo was not because they were stupid and could not take it out
But they did rip off my woodgrain and break my dash
For the motherfuckers on a little red moped who broke into my car tonight at Pasquales Pizza in Mars Hill.. If i ever see that little red moped or either of you again, i wont even think twice about doing 60 over the top of you in my caprice... and for the record.. the thermostat you stole.. only fits 1993 caprices, impalas, and monte carlos... not to mention its only worth 4.95$
on further note.. If you want something of mine.. or something better than what ive got... get a fucking job and work for it you assholes
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| weird ass day |
[23 May 2006|12:23am] |
I wake up to a bounce fee from the bank.. someone in California got a hold of my banking info and decided to go on a spending rampage.. im goign to the bank tomorrow to sign the fraud paperwork... fucking ay... and i need gas.. wish me the best... I got a job offering from a Drafting Firm for 17 bucks an hour... plus benefits.. sweet... not really... its in Fort Wayne
Then to top it all off.. i got hit on by a hott bartender and she gave me her number....
Pinch me so i can wake up
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| Lonliness made me |
[02 May 2006|10:12pm] |
Ive spent my whole life trying to find myself in my own shoes.. my own level of comfort. what makes me happy and what makes me sad.. so i can seek and/or avoid certain things.. Really i have.. my entire damn life.. since before i can remember. and i get closer to eternal happiness each day. Some people seek comfort in family and loved ones... I really wish it were that simple for me... My family has alot of problems.. they really do... im not going to go into here but its best to leave it at... im on my own when it comes to problems.. i cant sit down and talk with anyone about it. Some people seek comfort in the lord and heaven... pardon me.. But i dont believe it.. I do believe that there is potentially some kind of "Higher power" just kind of resting in some awkward slumber untill a day comes when hes needed.... rapture maybe? who knows. Some seek happiness through music.... i call you a tool... You cant rely on music to bring happiness.. it just ushers in Euphoria you douchebag. Nobody turns on the radio and feels isntantly happy... de de de. Some people hurt themselves... by the way... what the fuck.. your a moron.. you shouldnt exist. "it feels good to cut" .... wtf.. it feels good to relieve myself but everytime im pissed off i dotn go "God dammit.... i'm so pissed, I'm gonna take a shit."
When it comes down to it all... I use myself as my method of comfort... its a variation of things.. a nice glass of cold water, some of my favorite tunes in the background, and maybe a slow jack and a ballrub.... Hey fuckers.. dont patronize me.. whatever gets me to where im going.
I have managed to find some things that bring me to my happy place.. some of my friends.. my friends rock hard.. like you have no idea... i could live without them, but bet your ass i couldnt function aswell as i do.. which isnt much now is it? Singing.. i love singing.. i take pride in my singing.. People seem to generally be pleased by my skill in singing and that makes me smile. Drawing is another thing that seems to relieve me from daily stress.. i dont do it enough, but when i do.. i dotn fuck around.. i go all out. My work is nice and tasteful. atleast to me.... and the last thing that i myself know i can do that makes me happy aswell as others.. is joke around and be completely out of this world... Like tonight i told this whorebag that i was going to wedge my buick sized shoe in her rectum and cut her with a brick... and when she walks away to her car later.. i hope shes struck by a cow... i said it so sternly.. the people around me laughed.. it was a good feeling. It really was.. and i brought all about... on my own.
So i guess im here today trying to find other nominal means of happiness. I work all the damn time.. so i can pay bills of course.. but it really does occupy my time. I go to school for Architecture. I love architecture.. i really do and i think it would be awesome to be able to design buildings and after its built.. point to it and tell your friends "i did that"
And i want to do alot of thigns i just dont want to settle there.. i really want to get a degree in Recording arts.. some of my friends think its a bad idea.. some of my friends think if i do go through with it.. i would have a hell of a time.. because im Deaf in my left ear. I really want some kind of degree in Auto body restoring and refinishing... i dont care whats under the hood.. i just care about the sleekness and the shine of the ride.. Maybe i could pick up some kind of certificate for painting and the like.. that would be nice. I want to become a licensed bartender... that wont be hard.. i know it wont.. ill do it.. you watch and see... and some day i really hope to open up my own restaurant with Billy .. Bub'nDubs will live bitches... bet your ass on that
See I'm willing to invest some time into schooling.. if it takes a few years to get happiness for the rest of my life.. ill pay the price..
With all of that though my life would still be incomplete.. and take this as jsut thoughts not banter or complaining. It all plays down into my biggest goal in life... you all know it.. ive said it enough... I will be a father... whether it be on my own or not... i will have Children.. because thats my dream... Ide like to have them sooner before later.. but at this point in my life.. ive got alot of shit to deal with... and im eating the elephant boys and girls.. one bite at a time
What freaks me out the most though is how some people have the "gumption" to call me scary.. because i know what i want.. and i know how to get it.. and i have my head on straight... Im sorry.. i was raised with my head high being told to have goals and i was also raised knowing how to meet them. So im scary because im not like the rest of the creeps that walk this earth.. big deal... Im not trying to follow some routine or be liek the rest of them.. im just doing what i know how to do.. and thats be me.. and i wont let shit hold me down... sure i get a little depressed here and there.. but its nothing i cant get over.... and for everyone thats ever just seen me as that guy or that friend... Ill show you.. Im going places.. and i wont let you or the world hold me back... but bet your ass if you extend your hand.. ill grab it.. ill take you with me.. Ill reach sucess on my own.. but whats the point if youve got no1 to spend it with....
So tell me whats scary... Not being like everybody else... or me just being me
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| this is not a happy post |
[29 Apr 2006|03:12pm] |
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been a weird week for sure... Monday i went to school and did some bitch work fo sho... immediatly after school i went to my boss's house and played some card games with him untill i had to be at work. I worked all night and then got home .. i wanted to go to bed early because i had to be up early to do this new job for my mom.. its really hard work... you have no idea... it pays quite well though. Tuesday rolls around im up at 7:30 for work with my mom which i didnt start untill 9:30... we worked 7 and a half hours and yeah that sucked.. then i came home and got a shower. By the Time my shower was finished i went to Danville to talk with this girl. Shes really nice.. Spent alot of time with her.. actually i didnt leave her home till 6:30 and from there i went straight to school... but i had ana amazing time with that attractive young women and i wouldnt have traded it for the world... After that i left for school it was already wednesday and i had physics lecture for 5 hours fuckin ayy... that sucked.. i went to work.. and came home and slept, Thursday rolls around, school, and work... again... but tonight Ive got plans with my Highschool Crush... we go out adn havea good tiem adn then we head back to her place of residence and get comfy... damn it feels good to be a gangsta. It was like 3 in the morning and with a kiss on the cheek i was gone... Friday comes about.. i lay around until i have to go to work. Work and then come home and do nothing all night.. and it dawns on me.. that i was just something to occupy there time... given I wouldnt have traded it for the world... i just want something thats gonna last more than a day or even a few weeks... im tired of just beign there for everyone happiness.. i feel like such a fucking tool... i dont know... im jsut tired of work, tired of school and tired of people... and not even all people... just girls whom of which can spend an awesome tiem with me and be totally happy but then not even try to talk to me afterwords.. wtf... fucking ayy
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[24 Apr 2006|07:19am] |
"Gregs guitar and your voice = Icecream cake"
~ademiles
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[21 Apr 2006|12:58pm] |
Well i got my computer back and as expected... i lost everything so im leaving it up to you guys to help me rebuild my music... List as many songs as you would like here or if you can.. make an mp3 disk with the tunes and send it to me...
Please?
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| Important Notice |
[19 Apr 2006|10:59pm] |
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My pc is down for some extended period of time... It was fried in tonights sooo inconveniant thunder storm... fuck... and i dont know how im gonna be able to fix it.. fuck me man.. i cant ever get fucking ahead.
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[12 Apr 2006|01:14am] |
So... Im about a year through school.. got roughly a year left... and ill have an associates degree in Computer Aided Design and Drafting. also... to accompany that degree Ill have about 45+ thousand dollars in sallie may loans not including the interest... so its gonna cost alot.. yeah... daym fuck that....
Here comes some diheartening information... My degree isnt virtually based on Architecture, or Mechanical engineering (gears and whatnot)So im not guaranteed a job int he architectural or mechanical field due to the ability of my degree to be "VAGUE".... Now... ive thought of possibly moving to another school and taking me credits with me... nope.. not gonna happen... now you might be asking.. why? it is possible.. I regret to inform you that ITT has slid upa big middle finger and waved the fuck you sign around and made the credits non transferable to any school... accept another ITT... so with all odds weighed out... I could just walk away right now with 20 k in debts and nothing to show for it.. .or i could wait it out... and hope for the best in the end?
So Many Schools... so many Hopes... so much money to spend... with no money to spend at all...
Ive been recently considering some thigns in the Automotive field... Now i know what your thinking... "WTF... Bub doesnt know shit about cars..." Fuck you... your right... but im not going to go in for under the hood stuff... Im thinking.. collision repair and refinishing... you know... people buy cars and crash them daily... every potential crash yields lotsa cash.. Im most intrigued about Paint jobs... Ide really like to get into custom painting and detailing... and i thought about it some more.. and well.. The car market isnt going down anytime soon... unless we invent teleportation 5 minutes ago... it would still take some years for it to get out ebcause lets face it... theres alot of pooor sunuvabitches out there who cant afford teleporting devices .. over a car
Now ide like some input on this... but if you gonna say something like drugs are bad stay in school... or something to the affect of... "No... why? Because im greg rettig and i said so" Ill just delete it and disregard you as a human being
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